13.6.07

time flies, does it? its like one thirty now and the next thing i know i'll be waking at one in the afternoon wasting a whole day of mine AGAIN.
NO.
im gonna do a quick post.
i watched the school field today for about thirty mins, watching all the sports and cheerleading people doing their thing. some embarressing, well, mostly in fact. i begun thinking about what i'd felt if i were them.
maybe its the weather, or the choc ice blended, or whatever.
i suggested to myself that maybe, just maybe, im self-centered.
and i was shocked to prove myself right. (haha) i ain't talking about myself, thinking of myself all the time. but i think somewhere in these days im starting to forget something.
the world spins on
regardless of what happens to me. its just my world that appears to stop for me.
so if it spins on, do i really weigh that much?
no. ppl survive on even if im dead, even if i do nth much for projects, even if im not there to comfort them.
y should i think from my point of view to think in others' view ALL THE TIME?
its hard but im gonna try put down my point of view. im insisting so much on expressing myself and my views im giving myself a horrible time.
one person does make a difference, yes. but its time to take some stress off myself, by not trying constantly to define who i am, not thinking im the most impt person around and not insisting on doing what the angel in me says.
maybe its better, to first be misinterpreted, then clearly understood.
to first listen and understand, then give advice when asked for.
to leave things and ppl as they are, and not get so uptight about eth anymore. no reminding ppl all the time, no being sensitive.
no thinkin about 'how to make eth in my life go the right direction' all the time.
let things ruin themselves if they are meant to head that direction.
choose letting go easily, then attempting to salvage struggling.
in other words, take things light.
we're all in our own worlds and i cant control yours, cant control what results in mine.
spins on, doesnt matter if anyone is satisfied or not.
life goes on. even if i ruin mine.
so long as i can breathe, i dont fear what i see coming anymore.

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me

serf
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"Happiness is enjoying, not owning" (Joanna, 2007)
"Happiness is a journey, not a destination" (Henry 2007)
"Gravity is the only constant"
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i'm living everyday like my last. i don't have much time left, so allow me to be emotional, to treasure life, to think simple.

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wishlist/wish-to-dos

new back-to-school bag
get a haircut
clean room
hang up puzzle
clothes!
completing the modules quite well
find a dance partner/ new cca
practise on the piano
lose weight
find an interest in music or dance